Kindrew's world ~CaHoTiC~

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2006-11-29T18:53:00.000-08:00

ok let me explane myself in the picture. i absolute hate that picture but its hillarious. me and some ppl were at a bar and i had alot to drink and i was like guys make sure i dont have any more to drink cause if i got drunk again that would be 4 days in a row. so i said im not drinking anymore. then this girl in the group was like here u go i owe u a drink and im like. sweet vodka so i drank it.lol and that is how i was drunk 4 days in a row.. hahah.

so anywaz today was my first day of work and i must say it was interesting. so much crap went on i really don`t want to do it again. i had to work at this colllege doing some background stuff, like shovel snow and fix pipes. well i was more watching the guy do it cause im sorry im not getting dirt on my clothes everything i wore was over $30.00. thats rule number one. if ur going to do a job that ur going to get dirty dont wear good clothes, i was filthy after that. anywaz the guy was using this fire to melt the iron when that happens the metal starts to drip and fall. so i was holding the metal for him and it was falling on me. it was like tiny pebbles dripping on me but extremely hot pebbles i was like yo what out. and he was like all panicing cause he thought he hurt me. but i was like no im ok. then we eventually fixed the pipes and the water was running. then the water went crazy and soaked me i was so wet mixed with dirt and metal dried to my favorite hoody. i was furious. i was like forget this. but i eventually made it out safe and sound. i have never had such a bad day at work

thank you

2006-11-20T10:58:00.000-08:00

aint it funny how i was like im goning to write in my blog everyday, now i write in it for like once a year lol. but its ok. so the thing is the days are getting alot shorter for me. its only 2 more days JUST 2 MORE DAYS. until i leave for 9 months. like some days im having such a break down cause i can't believe this is actually happening. i depend on all my pca people and others for support. like at times your my back bone. being alone out of my comfort zone with 12 other people truly scares me. alot of people have been praying for me (thanks ivy) and have been given me advice and stuff. and i just want to say thank you to everyone who's been there for me. thanks for the letters the phone calls and the text msg (whooooa melody texted me i was shocked, i was like she text msges, and it was a long one i feel special lol)

some people kw the real reason why i'm goin to this and some dont but even if you do or you dont you guys have actually made me sane during the waiting period. truly i will miss all of you, even the ones i havn't talked to since school ended. so thank you to everyone for all the support and keeping my sanity i truly am in debt to you.

so im leaving wednesday my bus comes at 730 in the morning NOW THATS EARLY. and i have to bring something that represents me, so i think im gonna bring my video camra that represents me, so ill see u all in 9 months :( lol ill prob do a surprise drop by or something lol

short and sweet

2006-10-01T07:14:00.000-07:00

okay this is going to be short but sweet. how long has it been since i have written on my blog..feels like forever... so friday is yearbook can't wait to see everyone again i missed ya'll lol..its going to be short since i have church in a couple mins (and im on the computer evil me) so finally my internet works so i can finally be on and talk to u guys again so see everyone on friday

role models

2006-05-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

there are three people who i really look up to..there Frodo, Gandalf, and Aragorn yes i kw there characters in a book but let me explain i look up to them cause i'm like each one of them.

Gandalf
i look up to Gandalf for his courage and determination if you havn't seen Return of the King you better watch it soon. While i was watchin it i was like wow Gandalf. Bascially the king was corrupt and the army of orgs was attacking they were out numbered to the extreme. the king wanted everyone to abandon the kingdom but Gandalf had other plans he knocked the king out and kinda took control. Gandalf fought and fought and be brouth the spirts of the soilders up. Something about Gandalf that he dosnt give up no matter how bad the situation was he stuck through it.like in the first and second movie when he was fighing that fire demon he was falling to his death and he continued to fight agaisnt him. Gandalf has the courage and the determinaton that i want. He dosnt give up even if he has to sacrifice his life. I look up to him cause he knows what he has to do and does it even if he might not come out of it alive.

Aragon
yaaaa Aragon hes cool hes a king i wanna be a knight lol..ya anywaz Aragon i look up to him soooo much dang. lol..i thnk i can relate to him the most. hes running away from his destiny he runs from who he is. however in Return of the King its like he has to grow up and take responsibility and lead the attack against Mordor. Its like he's me im always running away from the truth and from God. i know what i have to do but i run the other way. Aragon has to take up his sword and be the King on Gondor the time of running is over for him. For me i dotn know when the time to run is over. but i keep on running. theres obstacles that happens but like Aragorn i have to over come them

Frodo
"hey mama its a hobbit...dont look at it son it will eat u" lol..ok that was random, anwayz the final person Frodo. I can relate to him alot just like Aragon. So you all know who Frodo is he has the weight of the world on his shoulders. he has to bear the ring of power while its tempting him ever step of the way. it feels like life temps me with all its so called treasures. there so many things that i just want and sometimes i give into temptation. But it feels soo good..i bet thats how Frodo felt he has the ring and he knows its evil..but when the ring calls him it feel soo good that he cant resist it. at times it feel like im caring the weight of the world on my shoulders. but i thnk we all feel that way at times. for Frodo if he fails the world will suffer. But if we fail we will suffer and who knows who else. if we fail our future might crumble. So i beileive Frodo is a very unique character he's as small as a child and sometimes act like one, so much responsibility to a small child.

my leg hurts

2006-04-21T20:53:00.000-07:00

im starting to feel the pain now. like a week ago somethig happened to me.. i was running and then BANG i collapsesd. seriously i was in so much pain my feet were killing me. i couldnt walk i had to drag myself (my leg nto myself my leg). like when ever i move it it hurts and if its in the air it hurts even more.

ive been in so much pain for the week..i couldnt go out cause it hurted so much..i was thinking of getting crutches but then in the air my feet would hurt even more. .so if u hanvt seen me ive been limping in the hallways soo much or puttin my feet up becaue omg im in pain...so then yesterday it was feeling soo much better...like it still hurt but not as bad...so stupid me i tried to push myself to see if i was better cause honeslty i have been just eating and not movin around cause of my leg.

.so i decided to try running a little to see if my leg was ok.. and omg my leg just like snapped or something but i almost fell on my face..it hurted soo much i was gonna cry..so my leg isnt better at all its kinda worse..my mom wanted me to go to the doc but i dont want to...afraid its bad news so im just gonna chill and hope that its ok and it will pass.

by the way u like my paraghrs lol..eww speelled wrong who cares..anywaz Sat on watin LORD OF THE RINGS RETURN OF THE KING OOOOOOOO cant wait

im back

2006-03-27T12:19:00.000-08:00

wow it has been a long time since i wrote anyting on this blog but im back yall lol..so march break is over with is kinda sad but at least we get friday off so im glad for dat..so well march break was really fun for me..so much rollocoseter emotions(i kw i spelled it wrong MElODY lol) but ya well my last entry was me slammin college and how much i hated it..i was just goin through stuff...but its ok im good now...eeee im writing this on thursday tomrrow is no school and u dont kw how happy i am seriously. I know we just had March Break but im needing another break from school. lol..its quite sad if you think about it. haha. ya so im sopose to be on a diet and guess what..yep thats right im sooo faliling lol..like had little cravings and ive given into them. i have such a weak will power..honeslty but i can dooooo itttt..haha..im gonna try and loose 20 punds nooo 30 nooo how about 40.........i think ill stick with 20 for now..40 im gonna starve myself to death then. lol..and it dosnt help that price choppers is so near and they sell such good food..hmmmm donuts...hehe...aww im sooo upset i misssed aprils fool's i totally forgot about it..and this blog is taken me so long to right since i got so much..ya anwaz ill stop here and write another one..ooo by the way i went to the writers craft play about hannas suitcase..it was soo goood..and the boy in the play was hillarious hes just like me..but only younger and chinnse..and....DGT!!!!!! DGT!!!! lol its an inside joke

STUPID COLLEGE

2006-02-22T16:37:00.000-08:00

how dare they..how dare they write me asking me to do a test..how dare they say there viewing my application...i dont want u to..i kw it sounds weird..but i dont want to..when i got there letters and read it..i threw it to the ground..how dare they write me...i only want them writing me sayin they can't accept me..that what i want..i dont want them mainling me sayin welcome to _ _ _ _ college..what ever college i want them to say i didnt get in..thats what i want..i dont want to move on..i dont want to progress..i so want to stay the way i am..its stupid how i have to all of a sudden go of to uni/college...if i could i wouldn't go..i thnk its pointless..i dont care if ppl look at me like im a highschool drop out or college drop out..let them think what they think..if u thnk that im just gonna pull up my pants tuck in my shirt wear my funnky glasses were my tie all striaght and carry my book of to college then u dont kw me...if u honestly think that im goin to be all happy if i get excepted and all cheery then ppl u dont kw the real me..im purposly makin my marks slip so no school will let me in..i dont want to go to college/uni...its not me im not that person to be stuck in school all my life...plz...im not waisting my life that way

im really sorry that this post is all negative and evertyhing but when i saw those letters i asked one of my frineds if we can run away together..like honeslty im not goin to do it..when i go there for the test im soooo gonna purposly fail...to be honest i would rather wander the streets of down town then go to college and waist my life..im really really angry about those letters i just signed up because i was being pressured now that i see its comming true..i will do everything in my power to not get into colllege

AFTERMATH

2006-02-22T07:40:00.000-08:00

ok ok so my bday has come and gone and it was soooooooooooooooooooooo much fun..i never had so much fun in such a long time...glad i went with my friends..first i went to my friends house and we watched 2 movies crash(which was sooo good) and superstar(funniest movie ever)...it was awsome then he made me lunch and when i say he made me lunch i mean his mom did...hmm macaroni and cheese havnt had it in a long time..then we went to church which was fun..it was a black church so u kw..it was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaly fun..and then we went to a party which was really fun..so i had so much fun on my bday..thnks guys...and thanks to everyone who decorated my locker..it was soo awsome i would have never thought u were gonna do it..and the qutoe...lol thats something i would definatley say..thats so me..and im stilll gettin presents so im soo excited...so now that im all mature all my blogs have to be so mature and enlightend for u KIDS OUT THERE..lol..im just kiddin..ill still be ur freinds even though ur hangin out with a grown up...

so as some of u kw..the week of my bday was one of the hardest weeks for me...like 3 days before my bday something bad happened and i felt so down/i felst ashamed of myself..it felt like i was gonin to hit rock bottom..sighs...what could i do..it was to late..there was noone to talk to cause noone would understand..they would judge/riticule me for my decistion..my stuipd decision...hopefully ill get over it..tis sad how im not learng from my mistakes...i guess i have to learn the hard way..im goin back to that persons house ansd argh omgoodness..i need someone to slap sense into me

on another note...i have the funniest line ever u have to hear it ok ivy and i thought of it its soooooooooo funny...." what drug are u on" "Love" lol haha..u have to say it in a hippie way and do the peace sign..its funny lol

2 days left

2006-02-16T16:30:00.000-08:00

2 days till my b-DAY IM SOOOO EXCITED IM BOUCING OFF THE WALLS ILL BE 18 GUYS ILL BE A GROWN UP AHAHA..AND YES CURTIS ITS 2 DAYS NOT 3 OR 15

dear God..4-days til my b-day

2006-02-13T06:25:00.000-08:00

Dear God.
sighs...i know thats not enough...i'm just...sighs...its true..what my family and freinds have been saying about me that ive changed..that ive fallen..what happened to me...its soo strange how we all change over the years..some for the better otheres not the things we go through..we all go through different things which i truly find amazing...i thought i had to put up a mask to impress everyone...now im leaving my self vonerable..but to the wrong people...the reason why i'm wrting this now is because..tomrrow..(wednessday) im about to do something that i have never done before..something..not me..something...im really really scared...my emotions are running wild so many things are running in my head right now..im just tying to take it easy..hopefull nothing happens tomrrow

- kinlocke

HAPPY VALENINES EVERYONE UR ALL MY VALINEINES.
....
guys i cant wait im sooo happy my b-day is comming up..im gonna be 18 can u bleieve it..ill be a grown up..ill be all mature..and smart and well u kw...all grown up stuff..lol..imaine me mature..imagine me grown up..can u i so can't cause u kw im so childish as my cousin said but its all good lol..so yea i have to figure out what im gonna do on my b-day..i have an idea but not sure if i wanna do that or not...ive been so lazy hav'nt done any work at all ive been to exicted since..well u kw its almost my b-day lol..on anthoter note..why is it soo cold..burr holy i want the snow to go away now..ok thanks uuuuu..lol...

calm before the storm

2006-01-30T09:41:00.000-08:00

so its the calm before the storm..thats my new saying when somthing is going to happen thats gonna change me...and its kinda scary for me cause i could have stopped it from happening but now i cant sometimes i feel really stupid for letting it happen but now that i let it happen sighs i wonder when i will ever learn from my mistakes..like honeslty sometimts i woner will i ever learn from my mistakes..argh...sighs...like i feel no i know my life is going down hill and i cant do anything about it..its like u staring into a magic ball and seeing that ur going down hill but ur powerless to do anything about it..so these next 2-3 months is goning to be and interesting/ hard month for me...so anywaz i dont want this to be a sad and depressing blog...so next month is my b-day guys..remember and write it in ur agendas..FEBUARY 18..YEP YEP;..im gonna be 18...ill be offically a grown up..awsome... so im in spare..and im kinda tired now havingall thoses days off from school were sooo nice..i was like lyin in bed realaxin...i didnt even do any work..haha...sooooo today was day2 and KIM ....told me it was day 3 and i have spare on day 3 but not on day 2 and i tottaly skipped philo so it was nice but kinda sucked...so now i have to cathch up on everything..argh...shigs..its all right...so of course im gonna complain about the eng exam lol...so much harder than i expeced..i didnt kw any quotes..which sucked...but ill just do the bonus assingnment and get extra marks...

-kinlocke

Back in prison

2006-01-10T10:06:00.000-08:00

wow i havnt blogged in such a long time its crazy lol..oh yeah sorry abot the other two entires it was grace she was being wired as usually lol just kiddin..so yeah well it school..and im already missing the christmas holidays ahhah how fast those 2 weeks went by...well atleast i had fun i went shoppin like everyday spent more or around 100 bucks on my slef..lol..its all good..now im like addicted to shoppin i thnk im gonna go and shop some more cause it rocks.. and i slept alot with was awsome like i didnt get out of bed for like 400 once it was soo good... so i was thnking what should my new years resolution be...but im not sure..yeah so this entry is like a week overdue so many things has been happening..lol..so anywaz..my new year resolustion is to go on a diet..lol yep yep..or dont eat meat one of them..but im failing on the diet...how can i go on a diet when thers cookies to be eatin..do u feel me hahahahaahhaa..lol..yea anwazy..so exams are commin up and i have one...yeahh im so happy...i get to realx and sleep..hm i love sleep..lol...another of my resolution is to be a better/nice person..and yes i can do it..im naturally a good person..lol..jokes...yea well my name is back in prison..meaning back in schoool..and melody copied my name..i din copy her just to let u kw..lol ok i better go grace is trying to destroy my blog entry oo grace lol

2006-01-10T09:50:00.000-08:00

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back in prison

2006-01-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

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1 more day till break

2005-12-20T06:24:00.000-08:00

so yeah its almost chrsitmas time..yeah im soo excited i love this time of year...love christmas music its like the best music ever...haha..lol..yeah so im really tired i need a break from it all..i thnk im gonna collapse from everything that has been goin on in my life..sigh...wish i had a magic remote to rewind everything..lol..that would be awsome so yeah im kind working on a blog of dedications to my really close friends becaue i was like in price choppers * YEAH PRICE CHOPPERS* adn a guy said hes not close with any of his high school friends which is really depressing right now...lol..buti thnk ill get past it..so christmas commng up.and that means presents..and its not all about the persents i know i know..but it time for the annual bad perents ..every year someone gets the worst perenet ever..last year it was me with me belt rack..lol..soo anywaz.we actually watched a moive during law im soo was sooo excited WOW...i love the holidays it makes everyone so happy and hyper..like seriouly..everyone gets happy over the holidays which is really cool...yep yep...so im typing this in math class now..and its the last class till friday...yeah...we did it one more class and then i can scream for joy..yeah..soooooo excited well guys have a merrry Christmas laters

2005-11-30T05:22:00.000-08:00

okay so like im typing this message like 10 mins before class..ill prob have to lke contiue it later..so guys andrew kinlocke loves hot smoothies so yeah...hint hint..u can buy me one and ill be ur friend till the end of time....(thats really really long if u didnt kw that)..so im kinda hyper right now im like botherin the people beside me..lol..but its all food..yeah so anywaz i might be gettin the fire card so i can finally edit videos yeah im soo excited lol i really can't wait for that..ive been waiting for soo long.....luya we need to get fire...haha..inside joke...so this week has been soo hilarious..like in bible class when mrs. carmicheal wasnt there..it was sooo hilarious..lol..yep yep good times..so all of a suden ppl are tellin all these jokes..like jacobs batman joke..and josh "what song did the camel sing in the dersert my humps" lol..thats acutallly quite funny...lol..i love jokes there awsome...so were gonna have joint worship in bible so thats gonna be awsome..and then history :( im sad casue ihave to thnk of a history question for my isp...lol..and i have so much isp adn i have started any of them..lol..such a procrastinator haha...yeah so i just remembered toria and melody always got me with "transsabstantiation" or somthign like that lol..but now i can say it..ahha suckers..guess u cant use that word against me this time..lol

-kinlocke

Quiz

2005-11-21T09:51:00.000-08:00

i like quizes there really fun to do..and they kinda tell u somthing about a person..its like a breif history of someone's life...it lets u know the person even more and u learn things that they might have never shared with you before..while doing this quiz i was like wow i did that i can't believe i did that or like yeah i remember that good times..its awsome

HAVE YOU EVER?....

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) had a lemonade sales at a lemonade stand
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
( ) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been skiing
( ) met someone in person from the internet
(x) taken painkillers
(x)missed someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
( ) flown a kite
( ) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen alseep at work/skool
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x)been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car crash
( ) had braces
(x) eaten a whole bucket of ice cream throughtout the duration of one day.
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured with crayons
( ) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't do
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.
(x) caught a/some snowflakes on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) gone roller skating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
(x) sang in the shower
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours?
(x) stayed up all night
( )didnt take a shower for a week
(x)picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x)are scared to watch scary movies alone
( ) believe in ghosts
( )have more than 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( )gone streaking
( )played knicky-knicky-nine-doors
(x) played truth or dare and had to do something dirty
( )pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( )broken a bone(s)
(x)called the police

(x)been easily amused
( )caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x)cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x)had a Britney Spears CD ^_^
( )French braided someones hair
( )gone skinny dippin in a pool/lake
(x)Been threatend to be kicked out of your house
(x)walked into a wall lately

Someday

2005-11-02T12:06:00.000-08:00

well alot of ppl ask me..when will i grow up..well ive got ur answer...NEVER..lol...i love bein a kid..tis soo much fun..i love being outrageous, funny, silly (somtimes stupid)...and so much more...im not like...typical ppl who are always serious..like seriously..like i can be serious at times like when my friends need help im there to help them...but somtiems i need to be silly..if u see me all sad in the halls its prob that i didnt take my silly medication or somtin like that...yeah so that answers ur question..never..well as we all know we have thrus and fri off of skool..which is awsome..im not even sure what im gonna do for does days..might go to eaton center and shop..now that i work ...lol..well i was like reading ppl blogs and..its really fun..like u get to see what ppl thnk about...and how they express themselfs..its really awsome..lol...so well yesteday i was feeling really down...some things have been bothering me...i just wanted it all to end..like...seriously..i was feelin down and out...its not like i got over the feelin..like its still there...but i talked so some ppl..well acutally like one...lol..thanks MELLA...my attitude partner...she was like "coaching" me through...it..it was really wierd..im usually the one who gives all the adivce but this time i was getting the advice..so thats why....it was really weird for me getin the advice..i was like..holy..i would say that....but as we all know im thick headed...it usually takes a few beats to get it really in my head....lol..yeah well today in spare i was like playin some games adn i realized im not really that good in computer games...i was like dying every two seconds...which really sucked...but i thnk im addictied to the games i played now..its soo awkward...lol...so if u havnet relized it by now..im jumping from subject to subject..yes im that random...lol..well i just wanted to talk about the oasis chapel..it was really cool..i really lked the thing that sandra said abot having faith..like i did a spiritual..test adn faith was really high..adn i did it again and it wasnt that high this year..i used to have so much faith..but i dotn have that much faith anymore..i use to be like i know God is going to come through for me..or i was really paitinet..now its like...ill do things my way..or something like that...i really don't know right now...hope it all turns out for the best..and i hope i will understand Someday

Cahotic

2005-10-30T10:34:00.000-08:00

O.M. goodness i forgot my password to blog and i finally figured what is was..lol..i get it now...yeah..anywaz...forget about that catastrophie..(i thnk i actually spelled it right) ..yeah so much things has happened to me some good...but moslty of them bad...but i just relized that in calculs they were watchin a movie of earls bales and i was in it..and i heard laughter...ahaha...i secretly hate u...lol :)...lol..so yeah...so for the bad times...well lets just say over the summer and beginning of the year i was vunorable...physical and emotionaly..ive come to terms with alot of things in my life..ive been broken, used,,taken advantage of...and im just tryin to get past that all...sighz....anywaz..i dont want this to be like depressin or anythin..so as you all know cahotic is my favorite word..and yes at first it was chaotic but i spelled it cahotic....because i can't spell...lol..but im like i like the spellin..so ill leave it like taht..lol..its all good..isnt it...so yeah at price choppers i finally got down the codes..for most of them..i have to work on my speacking skills when im asking for price check...lol..i usually say price check on aisle 1..when im sopose to say price check on cash 1..or i say my superviosors name wrong...like i call him mike..when its marco....or i forget to actually turn the thing on..and im like talking into a phone that dosnt work..so yeah...gata get that straing out lol

its all over the place

2005-09-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

yeah well im typing this in spare adn its "cahotic" lol... i feel really sick...i thnk im gonna die..when im sick i talk on and on and on and its usually about nothing so sorry if i sound like im talkin nothin lol..so yeah yesterday was melodys bday (happy bday) and i found out one of her presents were i was like WHAT REALLY...soo jealous..lol...but its okay..glad she got it...so yeah..well..so yeah work was really..hmm interesting..my manager called me and said my till was missing 171. 90 i was like...holy crap...shes like do u kw how it went missing(well obviously not ) but the stupid thing is more than one people use my till so it could have happened to anyone...and we dont even count the money so how could they know...i was really sad..im like why is this happeing to me for...i was sooo disapontited...i was thnking of finding a new job..but i thnk i might stay..aah its soo depressing somtimes being a cashier

my bio-poem

2005-09-21T17:22:00.000-07:00

hey guys...well i changed my blog again..i like this one..the other was sooo blah..lol..yeah soooo....its almost earls bales day(spelled it wrong i bet) anad its gonna be our last one....so we have to take lots of pictures.. i cant belive its our last one..im soo shocked...yeah but im a group leader and im like..wut im a leader the the...but it should be fun..i have some "interesting" ppl in my group (inside joke)...so yeah...in righters craft we had to do this bio-poem..it was really fun...it brought back soo many memories...i relized as a kid i got lost lots of times its insiane
so yeah this is my bio- poem hope u like it later

Kinderws life

I remember when I pretended to be superman with my first blanket
When I got my first teddy bear I would never put it down
Went to school in Jamaica and lost my favourite Mickey Mouse lunch box
Getting hit by the ocean’s waves while I was swimming with my mom
Running around downtown Jamaica trying to figure out where I misplaced my family
Climbing my first tree in Jamaica so I could be King of the world
Having my cousin throw a rock at me while he took my picture
An audience clapped for me when I sang O Canada on the bus to school
Feeling sad when a drunk person came over and ate my pizza
Crying a river when I got lost in a mall for hours
I felt like a rebel when I accidentally set off the fire alarm in a store
Running away from evil Cinderella when I first went to Disneyland
Going to Marineland and having a love for animals
Traveling underground with my cousins and getting lost
Making funny faces at people when they walked by
Walking a long, rocky 1 ½ hours to my house
Realizing I can’t cook as I try to put out a fire
Proving to everyone that I was brave when I went on my first rollercoaster
Going on my first sandwich run and meeting a troubled 17-year-old
Realizing I’m bad with directions as I wonder around, lost downtown
Being one of the last people in the school to get MSN
Being given my second “name”
Feeling terrified when a drunken man tried to grab me in my car
Finally moving into my new place and realizing how high the 20th floor is
Going on a road trip with my family and realizing that bad direction is genetic

its soo cahotic

2005-09-06T16:34:00.000-07:00

alright it has been such a long time since i blogged and theres soo much that happen i dont kw were to start and were to end...yes victoria im blogging now..so calm down haha jokes...so yeah i finnally moved into my new place..its really cool..i like it...but sometimes when i wake up i thnk im in someones else place..im like were am i ...lol...but its all good...so alot of my family and friends came over to help move...it was soo cahotic(yep..thats my new favorite word lol)...but we got through it all..then after i went to florida with my family..it was awsome..but not really anything to do..which was kinda disapointing...but the road trip was....hmm...interesting...haha...my mom tried to get me to carry some alchol...so she could buy more..and im like hmm im not 19 ....shes like u have to be 19..im like ahaha thas my mom..haha...my aunt did the same with with my cousin but shes 18 were like...parents...hah...yeah so i finally got a job..yep thats right MR. Lazy has a job now thats wut my whole family call me mr. lazy..cause im soo lazy haha...im a cashier at price choppers..its intersting to...ppl..can be soo weird at times...plus i get to see wut ppl..eat...omg...the junk food they eat is insane...the job is pretty cool...i get to play with money lol..so yep..today was the first day of skool...holy can u belive im back there again..its insane..haha...but i got to see alot of ppl which i hadnt had seen over the summer wich was really nice..alot of u guys changed yep so thats all ive got to blog for now latz

2005-06-12T15:56:00.000-07:00

wow...just wow..skool is finally over im soo happy..yah now its summer can't wait..but its really hot guys honestly argh..so yeah i havnt wrtten in a loooooooooooooong time..like really...but we did it we got through exams..and im praying that i dont go to summer skool..cause then that would really suck..so yah i can't wait cause me and my family are going on a road trip to ceniticut..which is gonna rock..over there im gonna start writing my book again..caue i had to take a break...summer is gonna be awsome..but my mom wants me to get a job..i was like WUT..no i can't work..but i dont kw if im really gonna do it..but i thnk i have to..i was thnking of working at camp highlife..but im not sure..its rather that or toys rus or somthing..im not working at any food stores..i seriously can't work thoese machines..so i have to make a desicion..lol..maybe if i procrastinate i can not get one ahah...i kw i kw..im lazy..lol..its just me haha...so yah moving is really fun..and stressful to..thats soo surprising...like were packing already and our place is a mess we have so many boxes and stuff to pack...the good thing is i get to look at pics which is awsome..bring back soo many memorizes...but its all good...so i hope all u guys have a great summer and enjoy ur selves later guys

y do they give us so much work when im at my worst

2005-05-23T16:28:00.000-07:00

omg its happen way to fast...my life is goin way to fast..wit skool all these projects due and all the isps..its sgoin way to fast..and then exam with im realy scared casue i dont want to fail i haave way to much to do over the summer..so im stressint over that alot..then thers the move ..as u already kw were movin and its really hectic...like were already startin to pack..its really hard..and plus plannin a family reunion over the summer dosnt help...like im soo glad that we ha th long weekend ..i though i could relax but i was wrong ..i was doin work the whole time..i just need time to stop so i can breatehe a little..its really hard..all these things aree commin up to me way to fast..i have like 5 major things to do..and im stressed out of my mind...everyday i pray to God that i can pass the exams..and tget throgh all of this ..i feel really stressed..argh im trusing in God to get me through this hard time..and not only is it this ..but with some ppl...im havin trouble wiht just really sressed..and im freakin out about everyting...but on good news..i was packin..and i found pics of me when i was younger..it was soo kool..i put on of them on my display pic...i was soo adorable..lol...and i found pics of other ppl like shona..kiwi..helen..arthur..shania...everyone looks soo different..its nice to see how we all have grown up...i love moving its soo awsome u get to relive all the memoriez when u were younger..its soo awsome..i cant wait to go back to Jamaica..so many of my pics wre there..i love Jamica..its awsome..so well i cant wit till we move..were movin to an condo appartment wee gonna live on the 20th floor..so i can through water ballons down at ppl lol..hahha..so yah i have to have a movie night so everyone can see my new place..haha..u bring the drink and ill bring the CHEEZE haha..its an inside joke lol...

-kinlocke

house huntin..

2005-05-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

well im stressed..that rite for once i am..i cant keep up with skool...i have soo much to do..i have 2 paitns to paint for art..a bio essay..a bible essay...a law test today...a bio test today...and eng meida mall project to do..and soo much more..and im not even ready for any of them...ive been soo stressed..im like..i dotn care anymore..if i fail...then who cares..but i dont wanna fail..argh i hate it when they put everything on u all at once...ahah..well ive gata try and take everyting all at once..well on sunday my mom and i went house shoppin..omg guys its soo much fun..its like shoppin for clothes but ur in someones house..haha...we saw some pretty good condos..and some that just stunk haha (literaly to)....but as u gusy kws me i need the most fashionable house ever...haha..so i couldnt settle for anything less than a 8 on my scale..lol..but yah i likes some condos..and the ones that i liked my mom hated...so we were always disagreing...until we came to the perfect one..it was soo kool..i couldnt believe it...my mom and i were like we'll take it it soo good..its on the 20th floor..so wow its high up..lol..but its not final yet..im gonna go with mom again today and look at some more arond that area...cause its such a kool place...lol..dotn worry guys ill invite all of u over...hahah.

-kinlocke

nothin to say its random

2005-05-13T11:01:00.000-07:00

hey guys wuts up..well havnt writin anyhting in a long time..but here i am...well yah things have been goin really good..im just kinda tired..i seriously need to sleep...and also yesterday i thnk i almost got food posion again..but in the end i was oh kay...so yah on sunday my mom and i are going to go and look for houses..i cant wait its gonna be soo much fun...its like shoppin..but only for houses..and i dont have to pay haha lol..so its good... yah but a lot of things have been happen...skool and social life..i just found out at skool that for college that they look at ur 9-12 marks so im like..im soo screwed...but im hangin in there...dont worry kim i didnt rite about lionel for my whole blog...i gave him like 3 lines...lol..dont worry ill give u more..haha...yah dont worry kim.. hahha...yah well i just relaized we have like 3 weeks of skool left which is kinda scary were almost done with skool...ahaha i dont even want to thnk about it..honesly...yah so this has to be short cause im in media class watchin a movie..its one of those movies which u just cant help but love haha

LIONEL ILL GET MY REVENG LOL

2005-05-09T11:04:00.000-07:00

well another day...another day of dreams...well yah yesterday was mothers day...and on saturday i forgot..my aunt was like dont forget its mothers day..i was like..omg i totaly forgot...but then i went out on saturday and i got her a gift...it was really nice..and she liked it..i was soo happy..i usually give bad gifts...haha..but the only problem was i spent all my money so i have non left...so im poor..argh its okay ill get some more some how....so the europe ppl are back..*yah guys i missed u* so now everything is back to normal...so im glad...i liked all there stories..it really was touching....so yah my church is planing on goin to wonderland..and i kinda want to go...but i want some ppl from my skool..to come..so if u wanna come just tell me guys...kay...lol...so my thumb hurts sooooo much because of LIONEL argh (im soo mad at u lol) basically wut happen a pencil was stambed into my thumb and it was bleeding...im soo mad and it hurts ( i will have my revenge) haha lol...so yah im soo mad we have a eng test tomrrow..on that borin book...im just gonna die..argh..but hey guys we only have 3 weeks left of skool i cant wait YAH oh yah i just remebered..if u didnt get my email or anything..or u dont kw wuts goin on..some hacked into my account and sent e-mail to ppl that i liked a gr 4...just to let u guys know its not true..and im really upset..alot of ppl were yellin at me cause they thought it was true..argh..so mad...but its okay..its all cleared up now

-kinlocke

im soo happy thnks God

2005-05-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

okay guys i feel so much better..i feel soo happy..i can't beleive it...my last post i was just reflecting on what happen on the retereat but now...im soo glad God is changing me for the better i truly beileve...ive realized a lot and now im stronger than ever...i feel like im growing closer to God now seriously...i kw ive been down alot and really tired cause i had to go through some things but now...now im stronger with God...i use to thnk that God would let me down and he didnt care..but now i realize that he dose care and he's with me...he has never left me...also i would always help ppl but i would forget one thing,...i would forget to help myself...now i realize that its kinda a gift i have...i like helpin ppl..i put ppl first (even though i dotn act like it.) its werid..but i feel soo different...im more happy...more spirtually close with God

thoughts after the retreat

2005-05-02T09:49:00.000-07:00

well now that the retreat is over alot of things have been coming into my head...i have had alot of thoughts rushing through my head...like i thnk my spirtual high is going rite now....like the retreat was really good i loved it..i felt so in touch with God honestly..but then the real world hit me and i realize that im not that strong...well for the unity in our grade...i thnk things are just the same...nothing really changed...like the retreat we were all like bonding and talkin working out there differences and being frineds...but now its like we forgot thoses times even happen...its like we never went on the retreat at all...which is really sad ....for me the ppl who i bonded and became friends with i dont really talk to them..its sad i dont kw if were pretending to be bonding..or were just caught up in the moment....like for me i thnk im startin to go into my old ways(but not as much) nothing to the extreme (right now)...but like rite now im just tryin to get through life...caue if u thnk about it..we kinda only have 1 1/2 years left and then we wont see half the ppl in our grade anymore..im not saying that we all have to be best friends...but it would be nice for us to be "as one"...yah i kw my thoughts are all over the place about our grade and my self..well just to lay it simple...i dont thnk were unified i thnk were the same...and for me..well i just thnk im "growing up" with the wrong ppl..and wrong morals.. the good thing is that God has spoken to me at the reterat and im really glad for that...he showed me that my life is messed up..

we cant unify if theres no love

2005-04-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

well its almost the retreat and im kinda scared and happy at the same time...since this is the retreat we'll have until next year which will be the grad trip..and i want to patch some things up with ppl..before the year is over....but i realize that like on the retreat ppl dont actually go for unity..there being forced..cause i kw if i had a choice i wouldn't go...like at the retereat i want to patch some things up with my friends but i dont thnk i would get the chance to...because we'll be of doing other things...i would like to make unity and be friends with ppl who i dont even kw....im my grade(which is kinda sad..that i dont even "really" kw ppl in my grade) and my friends which i got in lots of arguments with...but i have a feeling thats not going to happen...i feel like going to the reterat wont bring unity up..cause ive been to the retereat every year and not once did i bond with someone that i havn't talked to...so i thnk all this business about were creating unity is really stuipd cause were not...we just put random ppl in rooms and say oh were creating unity...yah so we may talk in the rooms...but when we leave the retereat were like who are u again...we go back to our lives before...its really stupid...i dont see how the retreat brings ppl closer together..it just shows how disunify we really are...i dont kw...like last time i thought it would be a good experience and it was really good...but i never once made up with any of my friends so im like wut the heck..and the ppl in my cavern they were nice but its not like we bonded or anything...and now there going to mix the grades up in the caverns( i thnk) and that just makes it even more unconfortable honestly...its like i dont kw u so why should i talk to u...i dont kw i just dont thnk were going to be unified after the retereat...we all have our own "groups" and friends so its seriously not like were going to leave our friends and talk to someone new...i really feel like theres no "love" between the ppl in our grades...like i hear wut ppl say about others behind there back and its sooo bad....honestly..were just gonna put up a wall and pretend were all friends when were truly not

expressing myself through the arts

2005-04-21T14:17:00.000-07:00

okay well today was like the last time im gonna see half the class so im gonna miss u guys..have fun in europe...well as u guys kw ive been feeling really down latly with all the negaative thngs ppl say about me..well ive decided to do somting about it (no im not goin to fight them) i would prob loose anywaz lol...(im tellin on u..haha inside joke) but like when i was yonger me and my cousin use to write songs and it was soo much fun..so i decided to write songs of how i feel...and it works for me...ive written two songs already...im not only gonna express my feelings through songs but throuhg my books to..(which by the way ch 5 im workin on and for ch 4 i thnk il need to edit it cause ivys leavin) cause writing my problems down on xanga and blog(yes nadine i have xanga to hehe) wasnt realy solvi the problem..im really glad for all the support and everything guys..ppl express there feelings through poem..and i suck a ryhmin..so im gonna express my self throuhg music and books..and NO im not gonna sing it..it will just be the words lol

-kinlocke

club sunshine hehe

2005-04-20T06:40:00.000-07:00

hey guys well i kinda feel better thnks for eveyones support how helped me...i was just feeling really sad and down...but anywaz...europe is in like 5 days and im gonna miss everyone...i cant beleive that almost half the class is leaving ill miss everyone...and dont forget to rite me a stay home letter...and dont forget to miss me every day hahahaha (im serious) lol ...so yah...we have soo much work to do and im tired...omg i had to read tale of two cities and it was soo borin....omg darny did his Luccie in love with him.....like omg everytime i read it i fall asleep...soo brin...but its okay haha lol....so for meida were like makin a mall and its soo much fun...im gonna name it club sunshine hahah...thats actually good i like it....or sunnyville...or king kinlocke..or somthing that involves me hahah...and were gonna put a statue of me...yah well today was soo jokes since im writeing this in art...skippy was hitting me and i told on him...haha im like im tellin on u...it was ssooo funny...u would have to be there its jokes...well ive gtg and get ready for bio argh

-kinlocke

y dont they just let me live

2005-04-18T16:33:00.000-07:00

i just dont get life anymore...im sick of it...its just somtimes way to much for me to handle...i dont feel im strong enough...not only do i have to handle skool but socail life...and im just tired of ppl talkin all this stuff about me...i just dont understand y they cant just let me live...likei said before ive givin up on ppl..there all the same..and pint proven...wuts happen to me...im just really fed up with all the haters and everyting...i thought thngs would get better when im takin a break from bein me..but its not..it seems its gettin worst...im soo sick of it...i really dont get who ppl can just hurt others like this...im also tired of ppl tellin me how to live and wut to say..honestly let me live my life ppl...if u dont like wut i do then who cares...i just dont get ppl we say were christians and we treat each other so badly..like i can really not see the difference betwwen non christians and christians somtimes...i seriously tired of it all...like ive been waithin for a sign or somone to save me or at least get me..but no...i just find ppl ar just plain mean and rude..and i dont thnk they will ever change...today i was in the washroom and i felt really empty like somthin was missin...like i could go back to my old ways or try and keep up bein the best chritrian i can...i want to be the best chritians ..but the so call "good " ppl arnt really that good after all there just plain mean and ppl who i dont like anymore...ive lost my trust in ppl..and i dont kw if i will ever get it back ...im tried of babysitting ppl...well get this..some ppl ar mad at me...and guess y for bein my self...its soo stupid...kay wuts wrong with bein me honestly someone tell me..like i dont kw wut to think of ppl anymore..im just tired of bein lied to of being betrayed...of being used..im just tierd of it all

-kinlocke

the new and the old

2005-04-15T06:57:00.000-07:00

hey guys its almost the end of skool(yah) but the teachers are given us so much hwk..i can harldy breath...its way to much..well its all good...im soo excited im gonna move from my house and move into a town house or a town appartment i really want to move into a town house cause then i would have an basement it will be soo kool...then i could have a house party hahha i love house parites a good old fashion one ...hehe...yah but we found some places but they were ugly...and i dont want to move to richmond hill or marcum cause there soo boring...(not to make fun of anyone who lives there) but its all good....just i love livin close to down town..thats were the parties are hahaha...yah...but im soo busy i wanna go to my cousins house tomrrow but look at all the work we have psh soo mad...i cant wait for summer im just gonna go to the mall and hang out wit friends the whole time hehe...yah because of all the hwk and ppl goin to eurpe thats y my book is takin a little longer to post than usual..but dont worry it will be posted soon... plus i need a job i dont even have a job..but i dont like workin argh...i need a job that i can do thats not soo hard...is there a job that i can do by sleeping all day and still get paid...that would be the best job ever lol

-kinlocke

story of silence is the ch to read

2005-04-12T15:55:00.000-07:00

well guyz i feel sooooooooo much better so thnks to everyone who prayed...so i read nadine's blog of how to treat gurls on a date and i soo agree..hehe u should read it u'll get the joke....it was funny..make gurls run to the car and soo much more just read it its funny hahah....well today after skool me and luke(nadine's brother) helped melody decorate the bulltin board....well not as much helped but lauged our heads off..but its all good..we helped and luke picked on me ahhahah it was funny...i havnt laughed that much in a long time...it felt soo good...i was havin such a horrible day because of bio and stuff with life and everything i just needed a time to myself....but i decided to help meldoy it was really worth it i had to laugh..it like just brighted up my day...so as u guys should kw by now ch 4 is finish and the reviews ar in ppl really like it..ppl were like its soo good..and there soo surpirsed wut happens in it...i put one of my biggest twist in it every so i cant wait...its gonna be a really great ch...if u havnt read any of my ch(wuts wrong wit u haha) then ch 4 is the one to read...but u might be a little lost haha

-kinlocke

too sick to do anything

2005-04-11T06:03:00.000-07:00

hey guys well as u can see from skool or stuff im really sick my stomach hurts and my head hurts to...i thnk it started when i ate that un cooked fish...my mom said leave it in the oven at 350 for 20 min...i was soo starvin it put it at 400 for 5min..i thought it would even it out...lol...guess it didnt now my stomach hurts soo much...so mad..anywaz ive been tryin to change my template to jonny bravo...hehe i love johnny bravo im his #1 fan..lol..anywaz me kim and theresa finally finished makin our bible project...lol..about time to mr. philp prosponed it soo many times...i was gettin annoyed with the projet...i like memorized the whole script haha...so yah today were sopose to do the history thing when were cleaning up the classrooms..but i thnk i might have to skip it because im really sick..so mad..i wanted to paint i havnt painted before i wanna its soo exciting..haha...i thnk we should paint the skool sky blue...or orange yep orange...haha...and change the name from peoples chrintians academy..to sunshine's hill..yep...its soo catchy...hahaha...anwyaz ive gtg cause class is gonna start in like 5 min or somethin...oh yah im in spare oops forgot to say that haha..

-kinlocke

P.S. val's my bestest of best friendssss =) hahahahaha

gettin crazy in meida

2005-04-05T19:34:00.000-07:00

hey guys wuts up...its been such a long week argh...i cant beieve how much tings i have to do and how much tings i havnt even started...argh ths suks...haha but its okay...so i yah i did my media isp today i was soo tired and just wanted to get it over with i just wiped throught it....for my audio i didn wut to do...so i put some random songs in it like 50 cent, brtiney spears, ching, chrisina...and soo on...and omg...if u had seen the teachers face it was soo funny...she was shocked and everything it was pricesless...expecally when nelly sang "so hot i wanna take my clothes off" i coulse see that she didnt like it...ahah but its all good....i kw ppl like it casue they later they came up to me and said they liked it and some of them asked me to do it again for other songs...omg ivy wut a long list of songs...and no im not puttin AARON CARTER JUST BECAUSE U LIKE HIM...haha (inside joke)...but yah so all i have to do is study for bio...yah how nice...lol...so im gonna post ch 4 soon...its just ive been soo tired had no time to type it out...lol...but u have to promise me to read it at night with all the lights off..or read it all the lights off and a stormy night...cause its really scary hahaha...well soo many ppl in our skool is gettin sick...so i just wanna say get better u guys...skippy..mel...and anyone else kay well gata roll

-kinlocke the one and only

30 hour famine..gonna stuff my face

2005-03-31T20:14:00.000-08:00

omg i cant beleive that its almost april the 1 that means tomrrow is the 30 hour famine..im soo excited its my first time doin it...so i hope tis good...i get to sleep over at my church but theres no showers...eww how nasty...haha but its all good...like i raised like around $90 so im soo glad for that...hey guys im rich...haha but i might have to give 40 to my frined cause he only raised get this....$2.00 i was like how...he said he was gonna get 5.00 everyday from someone until he had 40 but i guess that plan didnt work...haha....so well i can't eat startin 9am...omg im gonna die..im gonna stuff my face full of food...so dont mind me if u see me bein a pig...hahha...its gonna be hard...but mabye it might be fun...kim's doin it the same time so at least i won't be alone doin it ..so im glad for that...yah well i wanna see napolian dynamite cause ppl ar sayin how its a great movie...argh now i have to watch it im soo eager to watch it...well i better get ready to eat as much as i can tomrrow..now this is the part i love doin...EATING hahah its the bomb...haha well cya guys on sat when i come back later

-kinlonke

finally bein my self

2005-03-30T14:04:00.000-08:00

yesterday was one of the most funnest day i every had (funnest was is that a word haha) yah i didnt do anythin special i just came home from skool and did work and i was soo upset cause i just wanted to realx plus i had an eng quiz next day (by the way i failed that to ) haha...well yah takin a break from bein me is kinda cool and diff....just not sure wut to expect...im doin things ive never done before....im prob gonna go places different to....well yesterday my mom had ice cream in the freezer (half left) and shes like i can have it...(sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet) haha...so i did...and omg i was just soo tired i droped everything played music and ate my ice cream..it was soo good...and omg here comes the embarrasing part i started to dance..omg if anyone had a video camera and was video tapin me it would have been one of my most embaring moments...i just ate ice cream and danced in my shorts it was just soo simple...but fun...i had alot of stuff to do..and i just stopped and i just did something crazy i was beeing my self....somthing i havnt done in a long time....it was soo much fun...i just started to laugh.... i kw im soo crazy haha

ch 3...next book treasure hunt

2005-03-27T15:08:00.000-08:00

hey guys wuts up...i finally posted ch 3 im sooo happy...so anywz im writin another book its called "treasure hunt" but dont tell kim cause i was sopose to do her book but i got sooo inspired i decided to do this one first..haha...ill post tomrrow wut the book is about i can't wait...well heres ch3:

Ch 3: Betrayal

The flames ate away at the walls and the ceiling. Steve laid on the floor motionless. A tall figure ran up to Steve

“Are you okay?” asked the man.

Steve was quiet. “Okay” the man said “I’m going to get you out of here.” said the man.

The man lifted Steve over his shoulders and proceeded outside. The building started to crumble while the man proceeded down the stairs, step by step.

“Don’t worry we’re almost out!” yelled the man.

Then a piece of the ceiling crumbled and blocked his path.

“It’s blocked! We have to go back!” yelled the man.

He turned around to go back but the stairs collapsed, making Steve and the man fell to the ground.

“My ankle!” said the man.

Steve started to stir. “What’s going on?” asked Steve the man answered “we’re trapped in the building.”

The man looked around the room.

“I see a door but I twisted my ankle. I can’t walk” said the man.

The roof collapsed and surrounded them in a circle of fire.

“Were trapped” yelled the man.

The door broke down and water was squirted toward the fire.

“Hold on we’ll get you out of there” said the firefighter.

Minutes later the man and Steve were outside, tired from the adventure. Steve walked up to the man.

“I want to thank you for saving me” said Steve “I don’t even know your name.”

The man turned his attention to Steve.
“My name… Oh! Yes its Thomas Bernard” Said Thomas. Steve almost fell over “You’re a Bernard!” shouted Steve.
Thomas looked at Steve strangely “Are you okay?” asked Thomas.

Steve sat down on a bench. He sighed and looked up at the sky. The stars in the sky shone brightly. Thomas sat down beside him

“by any chance, are you Steve Waterson?” asked Thomas.

Steve looked at him blankly

“How did you know who I was?” asked Steve. “Well it’s the strangest thing I was driving home when I got an anonymous phone call” said Thomas as he walked to his car “Come on I’ll give you a ride.”

“No, thanks I have to go get my nephew” said Steve “Before I leave can you tell me what happened after the phone call.”

Thomas walked over to Steve and sat beside him.

“Well when I picked up the voice on the other line told me that a Steve Waterson was in trouble” said Thomas

“It was really weird he never left a name or a number.”

Steve sat there pondering what he should do next.

“Come on there’s no point of just sitting here” Thomas said.

Thomas stood up and stretched out his arm to help him up. Steve looked at his hand and saw a ring on Thomas finger. It was gold and had a carving of a lion on it. “Nice ring, were did you get it from?” asked Steve.

“Oh! This old thing. My brother gave it to me. I have two of them, it was custom made so there is only two in the world” said Thomas

“You’re brother?” asked Steve. “My brother is Mr. Bernard the millionaire” said Thomas.

Steve looked up at Thomas. He could see that he was upset because his brothers dead.

“What happened on the day that Mr. Bernard died?” asked Steve

Thomas sat back down “It’s all my fault” said Thomas.

He covered his face with his hands.

“I was in the library reading Moby Dick when I heard Mrs. Bernard and the gardener arguing” said Thomas.

“What were they arguing about?” asked Steve.

“All I heard was that Mrs. Bernard wanted to tell Mr. Bernard something important but the gardener Job didn’t want her to” said Thomas.

“How is it your fault?” asked Steve.

Thomas watched the fire fighters as they packed their equipment back in there truck.

“Well, while I was reading my book I saw his hooded man” said Thomas.

Thomas hands started to shake and he put his hands in his pockets to make it stop.

“It’s freezing. Let’s go in my car and continue talking.”

“Wait! Thomas let’s go to the mansion, it’s next door” said Steve.

Thomas and Steve made there way to the mansion

“I hope Matt isn’t worried, I’m really late” said Steve.

They finally made there way to the gate of the mansion Steve stopped in his tracks.

“What’s wrong Steve?” asked Thomas

“What happened after you saw the hooded man?” asked Steve

“At first, I thought I was day dreaming until I heard Mr. Bernard yell” said Thomas. “That’s when I saw Mr. Bernard on the floor dead. Someone shot him.”

“Were you the first person there?” asked Steve.

“No, the maid was. There she was kneeling by the body” said Thomas “I better be going. Nice to meet you Steve”

“You too. Thank you for everything. You saved my life” said Steve.

With that Thomas left Steve there. Steve walked up the stairs to the mansion. A head of him was a man.

“Hi I’m Steve” said Steve “are you Sam?” “Yes, I am” said Sam.

Sam was dressed like a typical nineteen year old boy. He had short blonde hair and was very skinny with blue eyes. Steve ran up the steps

“Where is Matthew?” asked Steve panting.

“I took him back home he wasn’t feeling well” said Sam.

Sam slammed the door in Steve’s face.

“There’s no point of me staying here then” said Steve.

He made his way down the steps to the streets. Waiting for him was the manager of the hotel. Up in another part of the mansion, Matthew was trapped in an empty room.

“Where am I” asked Matt “the last thing I remember is was talking to the gardener.”

Matt looked around the room. On the other side of the room was a door. He opened the door revealing a long dark hallway with red carpet. Matt made his way down the hallway. On the walls were pictures of each generation of Bernards.

“I must be in another part of the Bernard’s mansion” said Matt.

The further Matt went down the hall, the dirtier the area got. The paint was peeling from the wall and the light got dimmer as he proceeded on. Rats scurried away from the light into the dark

“This place is disgusting. Someone needs to clean this place” said Matt.

At the end of the hall, there was a door. Matt ran down the hall towards the door. He went inside the locked room it looked like a laboratory. Test tubes were everywhere and computers were printing of calculations and pictures.

“Hello! You must be Matt” said a voice.

Matt looked around and saw a girl with blond hair. She looked very young. She was wearing a lab coat

“You must be Sarah Bernard.” said Matt.

Sarah got up from her chair and walked over to Matt

“How did you know my name?” asked Sarah. “By your name tag” said Matt “Where am I?”

Sarah walked over to a table and poured some chemicals into a test tube

“you’re in the science room” said Sarah.

Matt walked over to the table “your studding to be a scientist?” asked Matt.

“Yes, it’s my dream. My father never wanted me to become a scientist. He wanted me to go into the family business” said Sarah.

“To be honest, I’m glad that the old man is gone now I’m free to do what I want.” “You and Mr. Bernard weren’t close?” asked Matt.

“No, we always argued. Tell me when the container turns blue” said Sarah “I’m colorblind so I need your help.”

Matt walked over to the table with the chemicals on it.

“Is everyone in your family colorblind?” asked Matt

“No, it’s genetic on my father’s side of the family” said Sarah.

Matt put his hands in his pocket and he felt something in it. He pulled out the letter he took from the gardener. He had almost forgotten that he had the letter. He opened the letter revealing a key and a note. Matt put the key into his pocket.

“What is that?” asked Sarah

“It’s a letter that I found around the gardener’s things” said Matt.

Sarah stared at the letter, eagerly.

“Here give it to me” said Sarah as she tried to grab it.

She grabbed Matt’s hand and held on tight.

“Let me go!” yelled Matt.

He stomped on Sarah’s foot and made a dash to the door.

“Come back here Matt the letter is dangerous!” yelled Sarah as she ran after him.

While she ran she accidentally knocked down two beakers with chemicals inside. Out of the chemicals, a grey smoke appeared covering the room.

“It’s sleeping gas!” yelled Sarah “Run Matt!”

Matt and Sarah ran down the hall the smoke became thicker traveling down the hall.

“Don’t breathe it in!” yelled Sarah.

Both of them ran into the room where Matt started in.

“Close the door quickly!” yelled Sarah.

Matt quickly closed the door, dropping the letter.

“Why does that smoke move so fast?” asked Matt.

Sarah went to the bookshelf looking for a book.

“The sleeping gas is unstable if your breath too much in you can die. It moves extremely fast” said Sarah.

“Hurry the smoke is coming through the crack of the door!” yelled Matt.

Sara pulled out a book from the shelf causing the bookshelf to move revealing a hidden passage. The stairs of the hidden passage spiraled downward to the ground. Sarah and Matt ran down the darkened passage. The passage led them outside of the mansion

“Are you okay, Matt?” said Sarah “Sorry about what happened”

“Yeah I’m fine, its okay” said Matt.

Matt looked around in the distance he could see Steve talking to the manager of the hotel.

“Uncle Steve!” yelled Matt.

As Matt ran up to Steve the smoke disappeared into the sky

“Matt there you are where have you been?” asked Steve.

“I was trapped in a secret room but Sarah saved me” said Matt.

“Who’s Sarah?” asked Steve. Matt turned around to introduce him to Sarah but she was gone. “Where did she go?” asked Matt “Excuse me, can I continue?” asked the manger.

“Sorry about that” said Steve “After you guys left, a strange man appeared and left a letter for you,” said the manager as he handed Steve the letter.

Steve opened the letter and read it “What do you mean he was strange?” asked Matt “Well he wore all black and a hood that covered his face” said the manager “he was a hooded man” the manager chuckled but when he saw that they weren’t laughing, he stopped.

“Thomas said he saw a hooded man on the day of the murder” said Steve. “Matt, here read this.” said Steve as he handed Matt the letter.

The letter had only five words: Stay away from the Bernards. Matt crumpled up the letter.

“What are we going to do, Steve?” asked Matt.

Steve turned to the mansion. The mansion no longer looked luxurious and beautiful. It was covered with a corrupt darkness the garden no longer blossomed with life but seemed to be decaying. Steve turned back to Matt and the manager

“We need to stay over at the mansion to get more clues,” said Steve.

“Then I’m coming with you” said Matt “Oh yeah the guy also left this ring behind.” said the manager as he handed Steve the ring.

“It can’t be” whispered Steve. Rain started to fall from the sky hitting the ground hard. Steve dropped the ring in a puddle.

He and Matt made their way to the mansion. “I have been betrayed.” whispered Steve. The ring lay on the sidewalk as droplets of rain fell on it. The ring was golden and had a carving of a lion on it.

its my future but i need help

2005-03-24T07:09:00.000-08:00

well im back and ive been doin alot of thinkin about my life and well i read melz blog and it inspired me to...it has inspired me to be real..to everyone in my lfe even in my daily life...somtimes its hard bein ur self with all the ppl judin u and stuff...its not like i kw wut is gonna happen in my life...its complicated....but seriously i want to be real....im tried of puttin up a mask and carin if ppl like me or not....another thng that inspired me was melz and KIMS blog (shocking) haha like kim said she wats to go into the music busness...(hope u do kim and hope ur famous) haha...plus i wanaa go inot the business but not for sining....so dont worry hahahha..or mabye...hehe....i want to go into dircetin but its gonna be hard...i dont kw were to start...like ppl tell me to go for it...and others say its gonna be hard...and others say dont even bother...but i really like directin it sounds like soo much fun...i would love to make movies up...but i dont kw where to start..is there a special skool or book i have no idea its just soo compliacated...just like kim said "people in both of those businesses are pretty messed up and immoral" i dont wanna get messed up...cause it's easy for me to stray away...but i really want to direct...just like Kim soo many questions but i have nooo answers....before i said i wanna be this when i grow up then i change my mind...then i change my mind again but this is somthin i kw i would enjoy and i would love doin...its just where to start and how..i really dont kw argh im confused again.....and arthur has to stop readin over my sholder or im gonna kick him just kiddin.....and if i do the prob is will i be good enough...i thnk im good enough but since im takin a break from me i relaze the real world is out there and it hits u in a hard way

i give up on life, hope, and dreams

2005-03-22T14:58:00.000-08:00

i have given up....its plain and simple...i cant keep on goin anymore...if i do im just goin to die...i have been through soo much things in my life and i cant keep on goin anymore...i have tried to but its too hard...today in skool i was soo upset i didnt really talk because my life is soo messed up...i have tried my best in everythin skool and life and it ends up blowin up in my face....ppl ar just jerks somtimes...ive been hurt by ppl sooo many times and it hurts....i put up a guard i dont want anyone else to be close to me and let me down like ppl did in the past....i gave ppl chances and i let them in and ive been hurt again over and over again...and im sick of it....im just sick of it..yesterday on msn i relized that i cant keep up with how life is goin and how its passin me by...i really give up on life i really dont care anymore...my life is crumblin around my feet...ive tried at soo many things and gave it my all and just like normal i have failed over again...and im tired of it....im tired of the haters....ive also given up on my hope and dreams...get real half the things we dream of doin wont happen...im tried of tryin to live my dreams and then seein it vanish in front of me...i give up...i give up on tryin to find the best in ppl when obviously ppl ar just the same...wuts the point on continuin when ur destin to fail...i give up.....i give up dreamin my dreams when i kw ther goin to be crushed.....i give up...i give up on tryin my best in things and failin....i give up...i give up on the hope i have in ppl, and life....ive decided to take a break from life...ive decided to do things my way and stick to the thinks i trust....im takin a break from all the haters...all the lies....im gonna go and make new friends...friends that wont backstab u...friend that care and dont use you....i give up on life, hope and dreams....i just give up

back to skool..back to prison

2005-03-21T15:58:00.000-08:00

okay guys well im back to skool so im gonna write in my blog more often now since i was takin a break from it all....so today was my first day back omg i am already missin march break i felt sooo tired after skool...im not only back to skool but im back in prison u kw wut i mean...so much work we dont even get time to breathe argh... im like i dont care im just gonna sit down and eat cheeros straight out of the box...haha and i did hehehe anywaz i just relaized that melody and me are both doin teh 30 hour famine it was soo jokes....great minds thng alike hahaha....plus im gonna go to her church cause it sounds like so much fun seriously....if theres food im soo there hahaha....alot of things happend to me over the march break and i can't remember any of it...haha...oh yah well my godmother's dad died and i had to go the funeral...it was really sad he was such a nice person...oh yah this got me soo mad seriously....like at the funeral there was this little kid who would shut up and the mom and dad wont tell him to be quite they kept playing with him....they counted things out lound to the kid....and let the kid read a book out loud...it was soo ridiculous i couldnt believe wut was happen....im like have we all lost our sences omg i couldnt beleive my mom turned around soo many times given them the look (the be quite look) and i guess they didnt take a hint (stupid ppl) but so yeah i could hardly hear anything cause of them...and u kw how u usually were all black to a funeral..well there was this guy who wore causual clothes im dead serious...he wore actually causual he stuck out soo much...haha....when he walked in everyone looked at him and then they started wishperin hahaha it was funny hes such a rebel haha...well ch 3 of my book is done...yah and im still on ch 4 im soo mad i wanted it to be finished oh well so they'll both be posted this week haha well later

im adictive to the movies

2005-03-09T15:53:00.000-08:00

wuts up everyone...lol...ive been doin work every day...im soo tired...i thnk im just gonna stop and just wing it hahahaha...anywaz...i needed a video cam for tomrrow and i was feelin so stressed about it....but now im feelin better so im okay...im just gonna take it easy for the march break...i really should go watch a movie...i swear im addictied to movies...im always watchin them hahaha.....so im finally done ch3....and im workin on ch4... i really wanna get ch 5 done for march break...its seriously not easy...anywaz its wed and soo much shows i wanna watch so gtg later

had a mental breakdown

2005-03-07T08:39:00.000-08:00

hey guys....well i havnt written in a long time...but its all good...i had to go to another church because for the bible isp.....and i had a mental break down....seriously the preacher was talkin about wut i have been talkin about this whole time....i need to kw that God still loved me...that he still cared....and he talked about it....like seriously started to tear up (cryin) lol...cause its like a wake up call for me....that i have lived my life the wrong way and....seriously i forgot i was there for an assignment and i just listend to the preaching....i felt like the whole world had been lifted off my shoulders i felt soo much better....i relazed taht 'God will never leave us..Never forsake us" Hebrews 13...so i was really touched wut happend me that day...but now all i have to go to another church...and ill be done...yah...anywaz i just finished ch 3 im soo happy...but the problem is i can't put it up with out my editor ivy...so i will post in after march break...ahha can u guys wait that long...lol jks....well i have to try and figure out wut me and my group is doin for religion project....its acutally hard...never relazed well later

-kinlocke

im so random

2005-03-02T20:21:00.000-08:00

its a new day...new thoughts...new dreams...new goals...and new victoires...haha i just came up wit that on the spot u likeeee hahah..anywaz guess wut im soo angry i told my mom i wanted to be a movie director...and long story she baically said that i might not make it...(thats wut she said im soo shocked) ....im sooo gonna prove her wrong when im famous and makin movies...hahahha...yep....but i hope thats wut God wants me to do..cause i really want to be a director i kw its gonna be hard but i really want to do it....im soo mad at soo many ppl cough Jerome....he did put a pic of me in his sap...argh im soo gonna have revenge hahah lol anywaz forget about that for now...its almost march break and im so glad for that skool has drained me of everythin seriously....im so tired of skool...but at least torrow is none uniform which is gonna be goood....okay so heres the plan with me and kim..and i thnk nadine to..were gonna make a movie....haha ill be the director nadine can write the script and kim will act...it will be our play....well do that when were really famus hahah..its gonna be soo jokes...lol....well ive gtg its gettin late gtg roll later

i love snow dayz

2005-03-01T14:40:00.000-08:00

i love SNOW DAYZ there so awsome...but i hardly got work done...like i was doin english and it was really so hard i started 9 in the mornin and i went until 2:00 and im still not finish....i seriouly have do idea what to right about...and since i did that i had no time to do my book....argh im soo angry...but at least we only have 2 more days until march break...im soo happy yeah...ive been waitin for march break for such a long time....i have no idea wut im gonna do for the break...prob gonna be hwk...but i dont wanna...hhahahah...okay now that we have our snow day...i want the snow to go now seriously...its like march and its still her wuts up with that hahaha...honeslty its soo annoyin i dont wanna slip our side...omg cause i sliped one time in the road...it was sooo embarrasing....but im totally over it hahahah NOT....everyone is goin somewere for march break and im stayin home...ah man this sucks..oh well thats all i can do...i should get a job like my mom says..but nah i dont do work...dont worry my plan is to be rich and famous so i wouldn have to do anythin...hahahahaha

the truth is what

2005-02-28T16:15:00.000-08:00

why guys wuts up...im sooo happy theres no skool tomrrow thats soo great i can't beleive it...and none on fri so double...yah soo happy...like then we only have two days of skool actually..so yah the freakist thing happen today i was in math class and we were talkin and i forgot how it happened but mr vermont brought up how he had blog and he read ppl and he read mine...i was like omg thats sooo freaky.....im like teachers are everywere...they have msn and now blog theres no escapin them...i was seriouly freaked out...just watched then the teachers are gonna be movin right next door to you.....ahahah im so feaked out....lol well anywaz movin away from that freaky story(inside joke)....first i wanna say Happy b-day heidi...(yah i spelled it rite this time)...so yah im gonna finish ch 3 torrow and start ch 4 on thrusday...cause im soo behind....just because of skool....Omg i just remembered that i found my report card...i thought i lost it and it was in my locker...so im like oh yeah(i dislike report cards) i thk we shouldnt have them.... i read a blog from ivy and it really got to me cause thats how i felt so many times in life... "I'm sorry...I'll never be perfect...maybe I'll always end up as another failure." "I've done so many stupid things,,,and I can't take them back" - those are the two that really got to me...its just how i feel somtimes...im not perfect im not livin up to the standdard that ppl want me to...does that mean im a bad person...so much emotions rushin through my head all the time...like i hear all these ppl talkin all this stuff about me...and wonder y i just cant live....like ive done so much really stupid things in my life and i wish i could take them back...but i cant im stuck with them....like is living the way i want to live so wrong...its just somthing i have to deal with....its just things never go my way the way that i want it all ways goes sooo crapy for me and i just want to escape from it all...i just want to be me...but i always ask at what price....its just so hard its like theres a battle happen in my mind rite now...well thats all ive gata say right now...lata

-kinlocke

im a rebel and u kw it

2005-02-25T11:02:00.000-08:00

hey guys...wuts is goin on....this weeeek is fainallyy over immmm soooo ahpy...seriously...anwayz this week was one of the most busieset week for me...ive been goin late to bed every day...its killer....but tis all good..today im gonna see a movie...im not sure mabye hitch or boogeman one of them...anywaz so tired...im actually sopose to be in art but im skippin...i skipped the whole class and im in the lab...im such a rebel ...i have such a headache...and micheal is soo evil hes tryin to find mistakes in my law isp...hes so evill and he has a cell phone before me im so jealous...lol....its all right...well were gettin our report cards today ...so i have to go...im so scared for the report cards i hope i got good...lol well gtg the bell is gonna ring in 3 min

down with skool..

2005-02-24T19:31:00.000-08:00

finally bio is over im so glad lol...that test was hard i was sooo mad i put artery carried deoxygenated blood and i didnt even finish....argh i say that we should have no test or exams ...just projects...if they really want to test us just teach us the material and gives us little quizes so we can see were we are and how much we know...so we kw wut to study...argh dont worry im gonna drop out of skool very soon....hey i so can all the great actors and actress and singers all droped out of high skool so im soo gonna do that...im gonna be famous when i grow up...live in my mansion with my puppies...lol...yes now that im free i can start on my ch 3 book...im so excited i can't wait...ill probly have it done by wednessday so ppl just check wed..kay l0l...well i still have lots of isp and hwk to do argh the work never stops does it they just keep piling it on ...they act like we dont have anything better to do then hwk...im not sitting around waiting for whats the next hwk gonna be...im just gonna realx....hey ppl in antro ar doin a autobiography im so jealous i wanna do one to...im worrin u I BETTER BE IN UR AUTOBIOGRAPHY in everyones or im sooo mad at u lol

-kinlocke

omg i thought it was 15,000

2005-02-22T17:47:00.000-08:00

wuts up guys....i cant wait till march break its like 11 more days...but ill be proboly be doin isp or somthin...so im sooo angry...anwaz...i just found our that law is 1, 500 words not 15,000 thats such a relief i was sooo happy i was reallly stressein over it honestly....but now im sooo happy thats its so short...anywaz i thnk im gonna listen to lionel(only this time) haha..and not try to put God to the test and just live..thers no point in puttin God to the test cause he's God...he will relveal himself to me when he thnks im ready...okay i better go its late adnd im tired...dont forget ppl stay strong we can get through these 2 weeks..i might e-mail ppl jokes like i did last time cause they were so swamped with work lata

LAW is CRAZY...

2005-02-21T15:37:00.000-08:00

hey everybody wuts up...lol havnt written in a long time...i was gonna right sat and sun but i got soo buys...anywaz i liked my b-day i ate so much cake u wouldnt believe it i was actually fulll...im like no more no more...and then i took some more hahahahhaha....anywaz hmmm sorry distracted by somethin shinny..i love shinny things hahahaha(inside joke)...anywaz can't wait till this week over im gonna start ch 3 i still cant beleive im writin a book with my grammer hahaha.... hant started cause all da work we have...i wasnt stressed at all till Ivy had to tell me how much hwk we have...so mad...lol....well ive been thnkin and i have made alot of ppl angry or sad so i just wanted to say sorry to everyone who i made fun of just for laughs...if it hurt ur feeling im sorry...i didnt want to make u sad.....well now i better get started on law i havnt started i heard it has to be 15000 words can u believe that right now i have 0 ...lol i have a long way to go...

-kinlocke

HAPPY B-DAY TO MEEEEEEE

2005-02-18T13:18:00.000-08:00

hey guys wuts im soo glad that today was my b-day i had soo much fun...thnks for decoratin my locker...so many ppl signed it...and im gona force some more ppl...lol...anywaz thnks for all the gifts and gifts too come i liked them...lol...anywaz im soo tired today was such a long day honestly..i can't beleve that i have hwk on my b-day...its all good like dave said im not doin hwk on my b-day and thats wut im gonna do...no hwk...anyaz i can't wait for the bible project my group is doin wicca....(yah usually i fall asleep in bible) but this time i really want to do the project cause were video tapin it and im gonna direct it i love directing things its soo much fun..cause im gonna be a directin when i grow up directin movies and everythin lol...anywaz Happy b-day to meeeeeeeeee..haha

TOMORROW IS MY B-DAY

2005-02-17T19:58:00.000-08:00

HEY guys i can't wait tomorrow is my b-day yah happy b-day to meee...lol im so excited i can't sleep seriously...well mabye i can just a little hahaha....well all i need is a pink shirt to wear nice and tight haha (inside joke) lol...anywaz lionel is soo funny he said i should name by book...The book of Sunshine...thats so hillarious...(y arnt u laughin i kw ur not laughin) lol im really hyper cause im excited thats its my b-day tomrrow ill be 17 im soo old...and havnte gotten my g1 yet...its all good...ill take the subway i kinda like it SAVE THE ENVIROMENT ....all u car drives...argh so mad....yah thnks lionel and toria for the comments it really hit home...i like torias Law of...(some big word) i call it the law of wave lines hahahaha....well i better go and study for bio cause if i dont ill be so angry with myself...

ps..and yes to all u ppl askin me my book is commin its just ive been soo busy i just wanna fish my bio/math test...law isp and then ill start writtin again

my faith is slippin..2 days left till b-day

2005-02-16T18:02:00.000-08:00

well ive been thnkin...( i kw its a dangerous thnk lol) but ive been readin ppl blogs like like lionel, dani and kiwi...how they talk about how God really works in there life or how you just need to stop and say thnk to God...well today in history class we were disscussin about God and everythin and Lionel brought up some good points but i had to agree with Sandra more....like to be honest i have to stop and ask God y me...wut did i do to deserve all this and i wait for an answer and i get nothin...im like y won't he answer me....Lionel said in class it takes faith...yah but eveyone has there limits its only so far that ppl can go..that i can go....i look at my life and its been pretty crappy....like i ask God to help me and i work really hard but it never works out...i ask him to help and it seems that He's not listen or not doin anythin...like Jones said today that God will never turn his back on u and He loves us sooo much that He will put us through so much so we can run back to him...i say okay but were's my chance God...how come u dont speak to me...show me a sign that ur there show me that u havn't left me....its just ppl ar sayin u have to have faith and i do...but sometimes u need something to reasusre urself that wut ur doin is right...that ur not fallin form him... i say i work so hard tryin my best and i dont succede...i try growin spirtualy but then i end up gettin into trouble with ppl....i really need a sign from God that he still there for me...cause im not feelin it anymore....like sandra said...show me a sign move the table somthin...i kw ppl say God dosnt work that way he works through friedns and parents ppl around u...but i dont feel that right now...i feel like im left all alone to hang there.... i fell like ive wronged God kinda....ive done so much bad thngs in my life...like thngs u would go like sunshine did that?! He did wut?! and somtimes it feels like God has just given up on me...im closer to God then i was before but now it feels like im drifting away...i cant study i cant concentrae somtimes when i thnk about this...ive really have run out of ideas i dont kw how to live my life anymore...yah im countin my blessin and also countin the stuff that goes wrong in my life....they say u can come to God for anything and i do but it feels like He's not there im talkin to noone its empty...and i feel soo bad...im tryin to have faith but its slipin away...its only so much i can do....

3 days my b-day...pirate kim: curse of the dead pirate

2005-02-15T20:35:00.000-08:00

wuts up everyone out there lol....i have been soo busy so much work honestly i could hardly breath...when this 2 weeks are over ill be soo happy....i have law and bio those ar the two major ones...ah man...anywaz my b-day in 3 days i can't wait...lol i havnt even gotten my g1 yet...yah i dont care...i actually like takin the bus do u kw u save 3,600 dollars a year in takin the bus instead of ur car...lol...but when im rich and famous ill be needin a car so remind me lol...thats right im gonna be rich and famous...im practicin my red carpet wave haahahha so jks...anywaz i havnt even gotten to do my ch3 of my book(i need a title major) it will probly be up next sunday after these 2 weeks cause its sooo busy..dont forget my other book called Pirate Kim: curse of the dead pirate...its about kim and pirates lol...that ch1 is done i just dont wanna put 2 books up at the same time...well i thnk i better go and study for bio which i dont wanna lol

5 more days till my b-day...30 hours

2005-02-13T18:28:00.000-08:00

hey guys wuts up...the banqute was sooo good i loved it lol i almost beat kim's bro in the auction but i couldn't go over 20 bucks i was soo close...lol guys im so competative....anywaz havnt even started ch3 thats because i want to start it when im done law isp so ill try to have it up soon....well i was at church and we got pizza soooo good. ...lol and i was at my youth group called base(i kw it sounds weird at first but ull get use to it)...and we were talkin about the 30 hour fammine...so i decided to do it...i was kinda nervous since its my first time but i got some friends of mine to help me out...so like i have no idea how to start it but i hope i can last lol i love eatin choclate...so anywaz lol (i always say that) my b-day is on friday i can't wait omg...im gonna be 17...so old....well another week of skool is commin..( i really need march break)

-kinlocke

7 days till my b-day....feels like the whole world is crumbling

2005-02-11T12:57:00.000-08:00

hey guys wuts up im at skool and is like 459 im goin to the banqete i didnt want to go in the first place but well i hope it all works out...im soo glad its fri cause i need time to do hwk...and isp like its soo stupid they shouldn't give us soo much hwk...isp for march break...its not fiar its a time for relaxin and takin it easy...ahah i can't take skool for much longer its just sooo annoyin..anywaz i really need a break from life like i said before but its true...im soo bored rite now theres nothi to do...well lately ive been thnkin about God and everythin lol...to be honest before i was thnkin of takin a break from christainty(i kw im such a bad person) but cause my life dosnt go the way i want to somtimes and things mess up for me and somtimes i want to live my life the way i want to...but i decide not to but i feel like a bad person for just thnkin it in the first place...i dont kw wut im gonna do anymore

8 more days til my b-day....question it all

2005-02-10T19:31:00.000-08:00

i havnt ritin in my blog for some time lol thats cause im soo busy i cant belive it...i have a law rough draft due...then bio....and bio test...arts comin up and so much....i really need a break from skool...honestly on sat im gonna catch up on all my hwk and do some isp argh hate skool lol...i felt really sick today and i could go home i couldnt reach my mom this sucks so much...oh well at least i got some laughs in math..lol then i felt better laughter is truly the best medicine...well theres 8 more days till my b-day i can't wait lol..ch3 i havnt started cause im soo busy but ill start on sunday it should be done on thrusday for all u ppl askin...im really startin to thnk about my life and ask God y me...y do all these things happen to me...y dont i have "this person" in my life...y do i have to go through the hard times alone...its just hard... somtines im just questioning it all...somtimes i just wonder y bein a chritian is soo hard i reallly need a break form it all like everythin....i can't wait till high skool is over i really want to get away from it all..and i mean get away i wanna go on a trip travel around the world instead of goin straight to uni or college...its just not me i dont like bein stuck in a classroom learning i have to be out having fun...sigh....well im not sure wut to do anymore....

11 days till my b-day...to all the haters

2005-02-08T15:26:00.000-08:00

hey wuts up ive been soo busy seriously i have a law isp rough copy like due in 2 weeks...then i have meida log...then religion projects and sooo much more....i havnt had anytime to write my book ah man ill probly start ch3 on sunday or somthin its soo hard im not stressed yet but i might be gettin there...today in history we talked about the rules of da skool...lol i thnk we should all rebel lol itll be soo fun...lol...so many ppl ar sick so i hope they all get better soon... well as u can see the title says to the haters and i thnk its about time for me to talk about all those ppl who talk things bad about me....i dont care anymore its my life and im gonna live it the way i please...im just tired of everyone telling me that i should act this way to do this way...honesly i dont care anymore...im just wandering y i cant just live my life with everyone talkin...like im not gonna talk about them behind there backs cause i dont do that anymore so u shouldnt do dat to me...to be honest if u dont like me to bad i dont care anymore im gonna live the way i want to live

12 days till my b-day..story change

2005-02-06T15:58:00.000-08:00

hey guys soo yah i didnt get to rite yesterday cause i was watchin pirates of the cariabbean its the best movie ever i couldnt believe it...i love it sooo much awww man its the bomb ur so right kim...lol well i havnt had time to right ch3 of my book i dont even kw were to go from now...its gonna be tuff but ive imporeved kim's book(well mine lol) the title has changed its pirate kim: curse of the dead pirate...ill tell u wut its about its no longer a race lol.....omg i thnk everyone has blog now its soo awsome...i did no hwk so im soo screwed for mon lol its all good...church was really good today..he talked about some of the stuff i did with my fiends on fri...but i forgot wut he said already lol i have a bad memory i cant wait for my b-day only 12 more days lol

God works in mysterious ways...14 more days

2005-02-04T18:35:00.000-08:00

okay well tonight was a wild night....and so cool i figured out that God works in mysterious ways really....like rmb when i said the ppl i kw who ar chritians but don't live the christain life and i would let God tell me when...well he did it was awsome after skool me and some of my friends got together and decided to watch a movie....and well long story short we never watched the movie...we ended up talkin about God and our spirtual life...it was sooo awsome i felt so close to God and we all shared our experience like we were for 5 hours really....it was soo powerful and i thnk we really got to da person....i was just sooo touched i couldn't believe this is what i wanted and it happen...God really works in mysterious ways...well thats not the end of my story...i got home at 9:00(not even late) and my mom yelled at me cause i didnt call...(i was havin such a good time i forgot...this is y i need a cell phone for my b-day) and she called the police and everythin im like wut its not even late...but i could understand...but to be honest i wouldnt take anything back for wut i did...im glad i did wat i did even though i got into trouble..ps 14more dayz til my b-day

-kinlocke

15 dayz till my b-day.. God nvr left us we left God

2005-02-03T15:29:00.000-08:00

yah its almost saturday i can't wait to put my feet up and watch reba lol and other of my favoirte shows....i missed it last time cause i was out but now i get to see it lol yah....anywaz 15 more dayz till my b-day i can't wait i always remind ppl and give them test lol im so evil...like mike i like told him 15x tis week its so jokes....well my msn dosnt work since a month and i dont kw how to fix it ive been using windows messenger but its not the same...its gay lol ....i watched the game today and we creamed them they didnt stand a chance...i bet joey for a buck but then he gave it to benson just to get me mad argh lol so evil its all good i owe benson like 2 bucks anywaz he he...well ive been takin my spirtual life to the next step...instead of just sayin it im doin it...im tryin to be a better christian and so far it feels really good...its just that i thnk im gonna over analyze it and wonder wut if i do this...and start freakin out...but God never said being a christan was gonna be easy theres mountians u have to climb rivers u have to cross to get there and be with God..rmb about the ppl that i was talkin about early that there not livin the chritian life but they call themself..i really dont kw wut to do...but i decided to leave it in God's hands...i just pray if He wants me to then i will talk to them...so thats wut i learned this week with all the help of my friends thnks guys...just remember God has never left us its rather we have left God.

ch2 is up so if u didnt read it then u have to lol....oh yah and my second book "the last one standing" is comming along soo good im still on ch1 (can u believe it) but KIM'S THE STAR lol its soo jokes....i has pirates and treasure its soo awsome lol... well the book is about a pirate(Kim lol) and she's in this race to get to a treasure and be called the #1 pirate...also 2 ppl are after her trying to get rid of her...its really good u have to read it i dont kw how to put it into words...lol well lata

ch2 is here....16 more days till my b-day

2005-02-02T13:10:00.000-08:00

well today went by soo fast i couldn't believe it..lol...it was soo much fun i thougth i was gonna die because i ate the choclate milk lol well ch 2 is finally up hope u guys like it...so many ppl say that they like matt and they thnk mrs. bernard is evil...lol...u guys can tell me wut u thnk about them...today in chapel was so powerful for me..i usually don't stand up cause i was scared but i said who cares...im was really proud of skippy(lol) and victoria when they went in the front....hey just relized 16 more days till my b-day lol can't wait well here's ch 2...

Ch 2: The game begins

The Bernard’s mansion was like a castle; it was a luxurious place like something hand picked out of a magazine. The garden was picture perfect like a little taste of paradise. The gates to the mansion seemed like guards of a magical word.

“We’re finally here. What a place!” said Matt “What are we going to say to them? You’re not a real detective.”

When Steve heard those words you’re not a real detective he thought about the phone call, who was that strange person.

“Don’t worry about that for now just ring the door bell” Steve said trying to clear his mind of the phone call.

“Ding Dong,” the door bell echoed throughout the house. The door started to open slowly it creaked a long eerie creak. There stood a tall man. He was so pale like the life was sucked right out of him.

“May I help you” said the man. His voice was deep and commanding.

“Hi I’m Stefan……I mean Steven and this is my nephew, Matthew” stuttered Steve.

“Matt for short were the detectives” Matt said boldly

“Follow me” said the man.

Inside it was dark like night and so quite that it seemed that death was there. There was one big window where the stairs are. There were two rooms on the first floor, one leading to the kitchen and the other to the family room.

“Hurry up Steve! He’s taking us the family room, “yelled Matt.

When Matthew and Steve entered into the room, in the darkened corner of the room a women turned toward them and had the look of death on her face.

“Good morning, you must be Steve Waterson” said Mrs. Bernard.

Mrs. Bernard was a strange. She looked like she was in her early 30’s with hair as white as snow. She was very skinny and short for her age, her face so pale like a ghost.

“Yes, I’m Steve and this is my nephew Matthew. How did you get our number in the first place?” asked Steve.

Sweat started to roll down Mrs. Bernard’s face. She looked down at the ground, her hands getting fidgety. Steve could see that she was hiding something.

“Its okay, why don’t you tell us what happened to day your husband died” asked Matt.

“Well that’s the problem I wasn’t here when it happened I was out at the annual tea society.” said Mrs. Bernard.

“Tea society?” giggled Matt

“Then who was here?” asked Steve grabbing Matt’s hand to silence him.

“Well the gardener, my two children, the maid and Mr. Bernard’s brother” said Mrs. Bernard.

Mrs. Bernard sat down tears started rolling down her face.

“Who would do such a thing? Who would kill my husband?” cried Mrs. Bernard.

Steve got down on his knees and tried to comfort her.

“We need to speak to all of them there all suspects” said Matt

“Only the maid and the gardener are here” Said Mrs. Bernard.

“Matthew, you talk to the gardener and I’ll talk to the maid” said Steve “Don’t worry Mrs. Bernard well solve the case.”

They then walked of into the darkness to find there first suspects.

XXXXXX

Back at the hotel the hooded man walked up to the receptionist desk and handed the letter and the rose to him.

“Make sure Steve Waterson gets this it’s important” the said a deep harsh voice.

Everyone in the hotel was staring at him. People thought he was crazy. Kids thought he was freaky.

“Yes, sir but what’s with the get up?”

asked the receptionist. The hooded man said nothing and left the hotel, accidentally leaving his ring on the counter.

XXXXXX

Steve wandered up to the 3rd floor of the mansion were the maid was cleaning the bedrooms. The maid was chubby and short and she was in her 40’s. She was wearing a black skirt that went down to her knees and a white shirt.

“Hello” said Steve

“Oh hello you must be the detective that was hired” said the maid.

“I have a few questions to ask you about the night of the murder” said Steve.

Just then Steve’s cell phone rang “Hello” answered Steve.

The voice on the other line was the same voice at the hotel “Come to the building next door and go to the 3rd floor alone.”

The line went dead. Steve rushed outside and went next door he traveled all the way to the third floor. When he got there he was scared. He saw no one in the building. Steve entered into the room on the 3rd floor, which was completely empty. Steve sniffed around

“What’s that smell?” said Steve.

Just then an explosion blew down the door. A wall of fire was consuming the building and was heading toward Steve.

“It’s a trap!” yelled Steve.

He looked around. There were no windows that aid him in escape. Steve started to feel weak from the smoke and he could hardly breathe.

“What am I going to do?” asked Steve “It can’t end this way!!”

Steve tried to get away from the fire but it was hopeless. The fire was now consuming the roof and the walls, just as Steve collapsed on the floor.

XXXXXX

“He was shot!” said Matt.

“Yes, I heard a gun shot while I was talking to Mrs. Bernard” said the gardener.

Matthew looked at the gardener puzzled. The gardener looked like he was the same age as Mrs. Bernard. He was very muscular with his blonde hair.

“Wasn’t Mrs. Bernard at the tea club?” asked Matthew.

The gardener picked a rose from one of his bushes and put it beside a picture of him and Mrs. Bernard.

“Did you know Mrs. Bernard favorite flower is a rose?” said the gardener.

“Are you two friends?” asked Matthew.

“Yes, wait here, okay?” said the gardener.

The gardener went into the garden shed to get more supplies. Matt didn’t trust the gardener. He wouldn’t answer his questions. Matt decided to go through his bag to find any clues.

“What’s this?” said Matt “wait it’s a letter from Mrs. Bernard.”

Matthew stuffed the letter in his pocket.

“Well you must be Matt” said a strange voice. It was the hooded man.

“Who are you and what do you want?” said Matt.

“I want you to stay away form the Bernard’s” said the hooded man.

The hooded man grabbed Matt by the hand and covered his mouth. Matt tried to fight him off but he was too powerful. The hooded man captured Matt then disappeared through the bushes. On the fourth floor of the mansion, a second figure was watching this with a smirk on his face.

i thnk im failing my spirtual test

2005-02-01T16:59:00.000-08:00

hey guys finally my capret is dried so i can walk on it yeah...lol...so anwayz i have one more exam..i forgot its art but common its art so who cares lol...today in bio class was soo nasty that movie made me not want to eat every again...but i did i couldn't help it lol...well like i said ch 2 is done and its probly goin to be up this week if all goes to plan...and i have decided to write another story called "the last one standing" its really goood.. im all ready started writing it and i like this one the best...illl tell the plot next blog..lol...everyone is gettin blog now its like the new msn...lol...well i have thought i wanted to be a better christian but it hasn't been working that well..so ive deciede to take it one step at a time...like instead of arguing with my mom i just do what she says...instead of talkin about ppl i just try and be there friends...so i hope it works i kw its not goin to be easy..and i dont want fall from God... when last time i wrote in kiwi's blog i wrote about my dad and it got me thnkin abut how much somtimes i miss him but sometims i dont care...its all confusing for me i just wish i could get away form it all and just live...i asked a question last time in my blog...and im thnk i might have the answer...the answer is you dont...u dont kw the future...but if u stick close to God and belive in him then you will kw were ur going...the problem with that is your could say that ur christain and try and live the life but fall...i thnk God is really triny to say somting to me cause one example is i was in summer skool..and i kw no one so i just sat in the halls and this guys came up to me and asked are you a christian and i was like yes and he walked away...then later i was like mabye i should have said no then i could have fit in more...and i was like thinkin wut might have happened if i say no...so that insident got me thinking that i may have said yes im a christian but then i was doubting it after...another incodent was i was at the bus stop going to skool and this guy came up to me and asked are u a chritian and i bodly said yes...but then he said then u shouldnt be so judgemental towards ppl...and i was like thats soo me...i judge ppl all the time i do it every day i did it today even...so its like i thnk God is dropping me clues testing me but i thnk im failing all this tests

finally done with life

2005-01-31T13:01:00.000-08:00

okay im finally done with exams soo im soo glad law was the last one...i havn't writtin in a long time since my carpet is being cleaned so i have to write this in skool and stuff...lol its soo jokes...anywaz im still trying to keep God #1 in my life but its soo not easy...but i realy think that i have grown with God a lot...(well i hope i have) like i have a question its been botherin me if God kws the future and he kws were ur gonna go hevean or hell then ur life is set already...if u believe ur a christian but u fall and u die and go to hell its like ur life is already planned for u...i just wish there was somethin i could do to make sure i go to heaven cause i really want to spend my life with God ah life is soo complicated sometimes....anywaz ch 1 is finally finshed as u guys could see but now ch 2 is done...i love writing books its soo much fun...its not work for me at all....i enjoy it soo much...ch 2 is even better then ch1 theres so much suspence and everything...im soo proud of my ch 2....and theres soo much wuts gonna happen next..well i hope thats wut u guys think..and now im writing another book (lol im sooo busy) i havnt decide which one scary or action..the scary its calld "the book" its really freaky..and the action is called "the last one standing" so i havnt decided yet....well ill tak to u guy lata

-kinlocke

not sure wut to do

2005-01-28T11:16:00.000-08:00

hey guys...im soo tired im in english media writing this so its gonna be soo short...oh yah if u come here u have to read my ch 1 and make a comment..MIKE i kw u didnt make a comment yet...ur soo dead...lol just kiddin...anwayz i m not sure if got is talkin to me or not..i thnk he wants me to talk to some ppl but im not sure u see i have some friends and they say there christian but they dont act like it at all so im not sure wut to do...like im in no postion to do anything cause my life isn't picture perfect...im not sure of anything anymore...i thnk im grown closer to God but its so hard i dont kw wut to do anymore...anwaz gtg for now lata

ch1 is here...thnks guys

2005-01-27T14:26:00.000-08:00

omg im soo mad i typed soo much up but then it didn't work im soo mad well ch1 is finnaly here and i have to thnk some ppl like meldoy, ivy, and david....melody gave me some really good adivce im soo glad it really got me thnking and thers ivy lol she edited all my rough drafts...and thats alot....all those spellin mistakes ahah lol thnks so much ivy...and theres david he really helped me he walked me through my ch1 im soo glad he did i really apreciate all of u...makin ch 1 wasnt work for me i liked it...it was soo much fun...well thnk u so much melody...david..and ivy ..well here it is CH1 OF MY BOOK...ps i need a title lol

Chapter 1: A troubled family

It was a beautiful day in London, England; spring has emerged from the depths of winter. The London streets were packed with people running about trying to get their afternoon shopping done. Many friends and family were going back home, everyone except Steve Waterson.

“Uncle Steve where are you?” yelled Matt.

“I’m on the balcony, Matthew” said Steve.

Steve was a young man in his early twenties; he was wearing his good and only pair of trousers and a shirt the same colour as the sky. His skin was tanned from being out in the sun too long. Steve was a dreamer and he dreamt of being a detective. When Steve was a child he looked up to his father who was a detective. His father was on of the best detective the force had ever seen. Ever since Steve was five he wanted to follow in his father’s footsteps, but it wasn’t easy. Everyone had high expectations for Steve and they expected him to be the best, but Steve wasn’t. He kept messing up. In many of the cases Steve would accidentally lose the evidence, forget to pass on important messages and accuse innocent people of a crime. Steve had one more chance left or he wouldn’t be allowed back into the academy. His little nephew Matthew was his biggest supporter and he was determined to see him succeed. Matthew was an energetic ten year old boy and he is a very brave kid. He had black hair but wished he had red hair. He had on his lucky shorts from camp and a t-shirt that he said itched him to death. Matthew was one of those kids who loved to go exploring. In class he would always get in trouble with the teacher because he would be daydreaming of flying to far away lands. Ever since Matthew was seven he was supportive of his uncle.

“There you are Uncle Steve. I’m so glad we decided to go to London” said Matt as he looked over the balcony in excitement. “Did you read the morning paper about the murder?”

‘Murder?” asked Steve.

“Yeah there was a murder here I’ll show you!” Matt ran as fast as his little legs could take him. In a matter of minutes, he came running back, spilling some of the papers on the floor. “Here you go” said Matt.

Steve eagerly read the headline: Millionaire Bernard murdered family needs a detective to solve case. Just like clockwork the telephone rang

“Hello?” said Steve.

“Hello is this Steve Waterson?” it was a females voice it sounded old and very tired.

“Yes, it is who is this?” asked Steve.

“I’m Mrs. Bernard and I need a detective to figure out who killed my husband.”

Steve’s eyes open wide and sparkled like big diamonds “Sure I’ll be honored” said Steve “but how did you get this number?”

“Never mind that, come to 55 Downs Brew good bye!” said Miss. Bernard and with that their conversation ended.

Steve stood there as still as a statue “this is it I can finally make a name for myself! My dream is coming true” he thought to himself. “Lets go Matthew we have our first case.”

As they made there way outside unsuspected two red bloodshot eyes were watching them closely like an eagle watches its next prey.

“What’s wrong Steve?” said curiously Matt. Steve looked around,

“Nothing, I just had the feeling that we were being watched,” said Steve.

“Excuse me, are you Steve Waterson?” said a man.

The man was well dressed in a blue suit and a black tie and you could easily see that is a very expensive suit. He looked like he was in his mid 30’s. Steve recognized him as the manager of the hotel,

“yes I’m Waterson. Why?” said Steve.

“There’s a phone call for you at the receptionist desk.” Said the manager

As Steve was heading to the desk, he couldn’t help but wonder who would call him so early in the morning.

“Hello” said Steve

a voice that was harsh and cold like it had no life in it at all answered “I know who you really are, stay away from the Bernard’s.”

With that the person on the other line hung up. Steve stood there silent, his face pale like he just saw a ghost. His heart started to race. How could someone have found out about Mrs. Bernard calling him and that he’s not really a detective?

“Let’s go Uncle Steve the taxis waiting,” yelled Matt.

Steve and Matthew got into the taxi and headed to the Bernard’s house. After they left a man walked into the door of the hotel dressed in black, his hood covering his face he resembled the grim reaper, and walked with a limp. Across his right hand was a large scar and in one hand he carried a rose a rose as black as night, and in the other hand a letter addressed to Steve Waterson written in blood red ink.

ch1 torrow....u have to fail to pass

2005-01-26T18:21:00.000-08:00

hey guys wuts up....ive been soo busy seriouly...like yesterday i just got back from the religion trip and wow...i thought it was goin to be stupid and boring and i was gonna fall asleep but it was amazying i couldnt fall asleep everything he said impacted me soo much i love it....seriously it was amazying...and i have a law exam on fri and im writing ch1...and yes guys ch1 is finished and i mean complete for good...so torrow it will be on or i owe curt 2 buks lol.....im really proud of ch1 in doin this book i really feel like my friends are and they help me out even more honestly....i really have to thnk david he has helped me in my book sooo much i couldnt believe it and melody she had some adive and ivy to lol....well tomrrow ill thnk everyone don't worry but thas just some ppl who really helped me... theres soo much to do honestly skool is gettin to be too much for me but im balancin it out...omg just remembered i got back bio exams and eng and i did soo bad on bio...but i went up 7 % so im like its all good....so mabye to get good marks u have to fail...im such a genius...lol...torrow ch1 u guys gata read it

im back...opps lol

2005-01-24T14:28:00.000-08:00

its been such a long time ive been so busy...lol..okay guys really sorry i had ch1 posted al ready but dave gave me some good ideas and advie so i had to change it allittle sorry lol...oh yah thnks to everyone whos givin me adive dave, melody. and miss. vanderworth....u guys ar reallly helpin....so im gonna try to have ch 1 posted this week promise...okay curtis lol.....i can't wait till this week is over i can't believe i have meida and law exam...i totally forgot about them...to be honest i thnk i have a twin cause the guy in the french book looks like me and i saw a pic of a guy and every one says it looks like me ahahahhaha thats sooo freaky...lol....anwyaz just a side note LIONEL BETTER GIVE ME MY OWN CORNER...im so jealous lionel is sooooo mean to me...its okay lionel ull get me a gift for my b-day lol...FEBUARY 18 REMEMBER...thats rith guys i get jealous soo easly...my arm even says it...lol melanie...well i better get workin on ch1 ill post it somtime this week....didn't i say that all ready lol

ch 1

2005-01-20T15:57:00.000-08:00

hey guys im soo glad that the exams are over it was pretty hard...lol just can't wait to relax...lol well its thursday and im gonna post my ch1 like rite now..lol...so can u do me a favours and be honest wut u thnk about it i can take ur commonts and make ch2 even better....and can u help me come up wit a name kay thanks guys.....

im not puttin up ch 1 cause dave has alot of ideas to make it better so ill put it up later thnks dave

soul searching

2005-01-19T15:10:00.000-08:00

hey guys im back...so tomrrow is the last day of exams im soo glad i can't wait till there over religion is gonna be hard i wish every one g-luk and MIKE happy b-day lol....plus tomorrow is when i post ch 1 of my book so i can't wait... i thnk iv'e been rebleion again so much....im seriously just going to slow down my life and try to go closer to God cause i have been fallin doing my own thing latley honestly...iv'e just gata remember wut God did for me and say that im truly sorry...with skool and social life its soo hard...thats y im so glad i have friends that i could talk to about it honesly i love friends lol

relaxin

2005-01-18T15:11:00.000-08:00

hey guys i just finished history exam wich was oneeeeeeeeeeeeeee question im still so mad...but i thnk i did good...so im glad...lol...im so tired im glad i have a break tomrrow...so i can study for religion which i always fall asleep in his class....im sorry but its just soo borin ahah can't wait till religion done....ive been doin alot of reflecting (spelled wrong) on my life...well once in a while cause im soo busy...but rite now its goin okay nothin to complain about...just still plain to do soul searchin....oh guess wut i had a dream( i kw wut ur sayin i dont stay on one topic to long...lol ur so rite) i had a dream that my book got published...even thought i dont want to be a writer thats so strange....anywaz lol....dont forget ch 1 is commin on thrus lata

SUNSHINE
S
is for
Stunning
U
is for
Unforgettable
N
is for
Naughty
S
is for
Spectacular
H
is for
Hilarious
I
is for
Impressive
N
is for
Neglected
E
is for
Easy

ANDREW
A
is for
Adaptable
N
is for
Nice
D
is for
Deadly
R
is for
Rare
E
is for
Enthusiastic
W
is for
Witty

deeper meaning

2005-01-17T14:11:00.000-08:00

hey guys i just finished my math and bio exam math was okay but bio was sooo hard im soo mad i hope i passed seriously....so tired of exams...well ive been tryin to do some soul searchin but i dont thnk its workin...lol....im just tryin to find out who my real friends are and who just say so...and tryin to find out about me...but i thnk im just rebellin even more....its like my way now noone elses so im makin my own rules...so i thnkin im "fallin"....somtimes i like it but i kw its wrong....honestly i thnk when im out of skool i might get into the wrong crowed thats how my life is leading....but im just tryin to get through one day at a time....well tomorrow i have history and thursday i have religion....how excting ahah can't wait till its all over...hey and thurs day im commin out with ch 1 of my book can't wait

its gonna be short

2005-01-16T16:44:00.000-08:00

okay so its sunday and tomrrow is my exams on bio and math so thats gonna be so hard....but on top of that im not feeling that well so im soo gonna be distracted...oh i hate exams can't wait till its over...dont forget to read my book

im getting the hang of it

2005-01-15T16:15:00.000-08:00

hey guys okay so its my second time writeing this i kinda get how to do it now so its all good...lol...i can't wait till this week is over....all des exams ar so annoyin its like everyday i have one i really need a break....i really can't wait to put my ch1 up its gonna be da bomb lol...like my story is about this guy who wants to be a detective so he's in london with his nephew and they get a case to solve....but like un top of that someone kws that he's not a real detective and calling him and wrting him letters to expose him....its gonna be soooo good. lol...well i better go now lata

im confused

2005-01-14T22:23:00.000-08:00

yah okay its like my first time on this site and i have no idea wut im doing..i just got like xanga so i thnk its like xanga i have no idea....so anywaz ill add more to this when i kw wuts going on...someone help me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...kay im back and i thnk i get how to work this now so ive becided to write about my life and everything also put my book up....thats right guys im writing a book so im gonna put it on this site soon...ch 1 one of my book is finished so ill probloly put it on thrusday kay lata